Last week I started to write my blog post for “Whatever I Want Wednesday” ...and I had nothing. Literally nothing.
When I first thought of this post series I wanted it to be just for me. Not about baby and not about food. I hoped that Wednesdays would just a time to talk about the other things I was doing.
But then it happened, I was empty. I looked back at the past month and couldn’t think of anything to talk about that wasn’t baby related.
I’ve always had a lot of passions and suddenly I couldn’t come up with anything. And it got me thinking. What happened?
I’ve always wanted to be a mom, but in wanting that did I agree to give up myself? My husband asked me what I would like to do and I couldn’t answer. For the past three years I’ve been driven by getting pregnant and then having a baby. I couldn’t tell him what I’d like to do as a personal hobby.
But now that babe sleeps more and we have a schedule, I have free time. And I don’t know how to fill it. It’s no ones fault, I think it’s just a natural part of the different cycles of life. But what happens when you want to find yourself again?
How do you balance the responsibilities of a mom, wife, friend and individual? How do you push aside guilt that isn’t created by others, but worse, by yourself.
As you define the new you, how do you balance your family and individuality?
I’ll keep you posted as I find my own balance. Tell me about your experiences in the comments below!
I love to cook, entertain, craft and create - all while being a wife, friend, daughter and a mom to a little boy.