First off, not to brag, but this is the closest an update has been to Finnley's actually birthday. I'm very proud.
It's funny how I keep feeling like I'm saying the same thing over and over, which I likely am, but despite that every day feels so different. If we're talking truthfully, I would say that being a mother has been the best experience but also the hardest. I have never experienced such extreme highs and lows; from being totally excited about one of his new advancements, to crying in the hall at 2am because he just hates sleep.
Normally for these updates I talk about what I've loved and what's surprised me, but for this one I think I will just be a little more straight forward. If you have a baby that has difficulty sleeping (or I would assume if they were colicky or simply had a bad temperament) it can be really hard to enjoy the newborn/infant stage. During the day I love this stage and my little guy is so sweet and full of smiles. But at night he sometimes checks his loving baby self at the door and turns into a night terror.
I've struggled with if it makes me a good mom or not, the fact that I can't get the kid to sleep to save my soul. But my husband keeps reminding me that I'm a great mom, and that babies need a lot of help with sleep, and we'll get there eventually.
So... if I was to give you a five month update, it would be this:
What I love - my family and friends for trying to help me.
What surprises me - how accepting help made me feel like a failure.
Truth time - last night my husband took the monitor and I slept for 7.5 hours IN A ROW. So say yes to the help, a rested mom is a better mom.
I love to cook, entertain, craft and create - all while being a wife, friend, daughter and a mom to a little boy.